There's a small moment of loss as Logan steps back, moving around the bar and stooping to pick up the shot glass on the way. As soon as he's back within reach, Kurt indulges himself, drawing his fingertips across the other man's hip as he leans against the bar, his tail chasing out to curl around his calf. He sighs briefly, trying not to let Logan's words settle on his shoulders. He can't find anything to regret in the final leap of faith -- in so many ways -- which lead to his death, except for the look in Logan's eyes when he talks about it.
"Well, I don't mind a little heavy handedness," he murmurs, a teasing glint in his eyes and quirked in the corner of his mouth. "But.. I'm sorry too, Liebling. I'm not.. the last relationship I was in, properly, was Rachel, and that -- well, you know enough of how that ended. And before that, everything has always been so busy, I always assumed there would be time one day, and I've never.."
He drops his gaze, embarrassed and vulnerable. "I think I'm learning that perhaps I should have taken time for it, before now. So I could be a better partner for you, and for Wes and Jean-Paul. I'm doing too many things for the first time."
The way he draws in a long sigh almost looks as though he's cleansing himself of something or perhaps savouring the first breath of fresh air he's allowed himself in a while. Whichever it is, it seems to relax him as he hooks a finger under the hem of Kurt's shirt and tugs him close again. "Don't be sorry," he smiles. "I know I shoulda said something. I was just avoidin' a conversation I wasn't ready for."
Kurt apologies seem to extend well beyond that though, into places Logan only has the scarcest understanding of. Only the details Kurt himself has shared. It's a half formed picture at best, but one he knows holds an intensity. A depth that the younger man has yet to extricate himself from. Not that Logan of all people can fault him for that. "It's easy, ain't it?" He chuckles, but it's one of those laughs more amused with the absurdity of things than expressing any genuine mirth. "To feel like there's always time. Especially with someone you can't picture life without. They just sort of become, like the sun and the sky. Course they'll always be there. The world would end if they weren't."
When Kurt shies away Logan closes the space between them to press his lips to the cord of Kurt's neck that the turn of his head so brilliantly exposes. "You don't have to change nuthin to be good for me. You always been good for me."
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"Well, I don't mind a little heavy handedness," he murmurs, a teasing glint in his eyes and quirked in the corner of his mouth. "But.. I'm sorry too, Liebling. I'm not.. the last relationship I was in, properly, was Rachel, and that -- well, you know enough of how that ended. And before that, everything has always been so busy, I always assumed there would be time one day, and I've never.."
He drops his gaze, embarrassed and vulnerable. "I think I'm learning that perhaps I should have taken time for it, before now. So I could be a better partner for you, and for Wes and Jean-Paul. I'm doing too many things for the first time."
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Kurt apologies seem to extend well beyond that though, into places Logan only has the scarcest understanding of. Only the details Kurt himself has shared. It's a half formed picture at best, but one he knows holds an intensity. A depth that the younger man has yet to extricate himself from. Not that Logan of all people can fault him for that. "It's easy, ain't it?" He chuckles, but it's one of those laughs more amused with the absurdity of things than expressing any genuine mirth. "To feel like there's always time. Especially with someone you can't picture life without. They just sort of become, like the sun and the sky. Course they'll always be there. The world would end if they weren't."
When Kurt shies away Logan closes the space between them to press his lips to the cord of Kurt's neck that the turn of his head so brilliantly exposes. "You don't have to change nuthin to be good for me. You always been good for me."